I told no one of my plans. I did not cry out for help to anyone. There was no Facebook post giving some ambiguous or thinly veiled cry for attention. It was not a rash decision. It simply seemed like a very logical choice — to end my life that was a shamble, a disappointment, […]
“It Is Finished” I love these words! These are the words Jesus said with conviction just before He died upon the cross! These words ushered in a new hope for us, a new covenant with us, and a new freedom given to us. These words signified the end of Jesus’ ministry here on earth and […]
Enough. This word keeps coming to my mind. It is a simple word draped in complexity. It is a word I have turned over in my mind a great deal. It is a word that I have fought to understand — a word that has fought to become part of my being. Enough is Enough. […]
I can still see her knowing nod as she told me that she would pray for me to trust God more and give Him all my problems. That was it. She then walked piously away never taking the time to listen to my pain, let alone come alongside me. There was no support for me […]
As I listen to older women struggling with eating disorders I often hear them say, “It is too late for me to get help.” “At this age, I cannot change.” “It is not worth the work and effort to become well.” “I just do not have the strength to work hard in recovery.” “No one […]
If you are like me, it can be difficult to not only find to time rest and have solitude, but to justify the time I do take to usher calmness into my life. Why is that? We all have a good idea why. Society and culture today bombard us with the mantra that we need […]
Psalm 18:16-19 NLT He reached down from heaven and rescued me; he drew me out of deep waters. He rescued me from my powerful enemies, from those who hated me and were too strong for me. They attacked me at a moment when I was in distress, but the Lord supported me. He led me […]
Let’s face it. Early recovery from an eating disorder is hard. It can be daunting. Imagine trying to get a giant boulder to roll. That is what early recovery felt like to me. Finding our momentum Several years ago, when I started my journey, there were days when I was uncertain if I could go […]
One of the foundational things in my early recovery was the process of sorting out what my values were, what meant the most to me. The eating disorder and my other addictions, for so many years, clouded my vision and understanding of what truly I was meant to be, and what spoke to my heart. […]
Click here to watch my letter to my husband. Thank you to Eating Recovery Center for giving me the opportunity help in this project and make this video!